Stepping out to write on faith this year more, is going to challenge me. I’m not sure if I’m even ready to do it but here we go…
I’ve had this thought running through my head lately. My husband and I have always felt called to greater things. We have always wanted to do big things and have done quite a few of them. But, we’ve always had visions of more. A friend of ours actually travels the globe and reaches large groups of people to tell them about Jesus. It’s amazing to see. I am so thankful that I have not been called to do that because I don’t travel well.
We’ve always dreamed of leading worship for large groups of people or speaking for large conferences and that hasn’t happened. It’s easy to wonder why and compare to where other people are at. Even with my blog sometimes, I wonder about why aren’t my numbers more.
I chase more in so many areas of life.
I crave that my life would make more of a difference.
Do you crave that too but are frustrated with where you are…
We built our house with 6 bedrooms, I wanted to fill it with babies.
We have our one daughter and possibly only.
And the thought that’s been running through my head lately is that:
Maybe we are called just for this one, maybe we aren’t called for the multitudes.
When I shared this all with my husband he of course thought about how Jesus taught in Luke 15:1-7 about the Shepard who went out of his way for the one lost sheep. When the Shepard finds his one sheep it says he “joyfully” picks it up. If it were me, I’d probably be angry that I had to find this one sheep. The parable is actually speaking about that there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent. But, it reminds me of the season of life that I am in.
Maybe it’s only about my one.
Maybe we are all exactly where we are supposed to be in life, doing exactly what we are supposed to be doing.
It might not be touching millions of lives or having a huge impact. It might be just for the one or the few in our circle of influence.
I may not lead the multitudes in worship or speak at a conference, but I am hoping that I can joyfully do well with the one I’ve been entrusted with.
It is definitely the biggest challenge I’ve had in my life.
You know that I always tell it like it is here on my blog and a big part of my life is parenting a special needs child. That reality is quite different from the life that I thought I would have as a parent. My circle of influence has continued to get smaller and smaller and with our little family it’s easy to feel like what I do doesn’t make much of a difference. I continually need to remind myself that I am making more of a difference than I will ever know, even when it doesn’t feel like it. And, when it’s different than I ever expected. It might be just for this one.