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Our daughter was 2.5 years old when we first started looking for help. I went to a family friend who is a pediatrician, I brought the list of sensory behaviors that I had checked that she fell into. She wasn’t familiar with Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD) but referred us to a psychologist. We met with the psychologist and asked, “Is this Autism?” We spent the next 3 years working with this psychologist. I never really let go of the question, “Is this Autism?”

I’ve seen this question asked over and over in support groups, what is the difference between SPD and Autism Spectrum Disorder?

What is Sensory Processing Disorder?

We actually have eight senses: touch (tactile), taste (gustatory), sight (visual), sound (auditory), smell (olfactory) and there’s three more vestibular (balance, coordination, spatial orientation), proprioception (sense of muscle and joints) and interoception (internal regulation for thirst, hunger, etc.). Sensory Processing Disorder occurs when the brain receives mixed messages. Basically it’s the way the brain processes the senses.

Sensory Processing Disorder can be a standalone diagnosis and it can also be diagnosed along with other disorders. It is also a symptom of Autism.

What SPD looks like in our house?

Our daughter would have extreme reactions to tactile input:  clothing, soap, water.  She was sensitive to food textures, but constantly put everything in her mouth.  She was sensitive to sounds (auditory) and smells (olfactory).  She sought out deep pressure (proprioception), hanging upside down, rolling on the floor and constantly jumping.  She’s also sensitive to vestibular movement and would fall down frequently.  She would seek out movement though and was constantly busy.

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What is Autism Spectrum Disorder?

Autism is a neurobehavioral disorder that can affect language, communication, social interactions and behavior. It is a spectrum disorder in which it differs from person to person in severity and combination of symptoms. Overall, it affects how kids process certain information for example facial expressions. Basically, it is very complex and complicated and even more so in girls.

What ASD looks like in our house?

Our daughter from a young age had difficulty regulating, she wasn’t able to self sooth and continued as she grew with difficulty regulating her emotions and her body.  Behavior is one of the biggest challenges we have.  She has a huge vocabulary and always has but has always been unable to hold back and forth conversations and gets lost in a room of 3 people talking.   She has difficulty communicating wants and needs and simple social skills like responding back to someone who says hello.  Play for her can be challenging as she tries to navigate a world of social cues that she isn’t aware of, knowing how to play with objects is also challenging for her and she avoids things she doesn’t know.  She gets stuck in reading the same book over and over again and is often unwilling to try new things.  Everyday tasks are extremely difficult with the amount of executive functioning needed to complete a task like brushing teeth.

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How I expected our world to change.

Every year of my daughter’s life I questioned if what we were dealing with was Autism. We started working with a therapist when she was 3 but our daughter wasn’t diagnosed with Autism until she was 6. Her only diagnosis had been Sensory Processing Disorder.

I thought we finally had hit the mark, it is Autism. I thought finally things would change. I thought that now that we had an Autism diagnosis life would change.

When she was 6 we walked into an evaluation room. We told our story again. We went through everything in detail. This therapist worked with our daughter for hours testing her. A few weeks later we met with her and we heard her say your daughter has Autism. I thought I would feel something and I didn’t.

I think I maybe didn’t breathe for a few seconds.

I thought it would bring new hope, new therapist and more open doors but it didn’t.

I thought more things would be covered by insurance and it wasn’t.

The only thing that really changed was the acronym that we use to describe the challenges that are faced in our family and by our daughter.

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For so many years, I felt like I wanted it to be Autism. I wanted it because I thought there was more research, more people experienced with Autism. I thought it would allow more help in school and more acceptance.

I’ve learned that despite having a diagnosis, despite having a signed document from the most well-known Autism center in our state I still have to fight for services. I’m still driving hours for therapy.

I’m still fighting the same fights.

It never ends.

Life is still the same, the struggles are the same, and we just call it something different.

Welcome to Voices of Special Needs Blog Hop — a monthly gathering of posts from special needs bloggers hosted by The Sensory Spectrum and Mommy Evolution. Click on the links below to read stories from other bloggers about having a special needs kiddo — from Sensory Processing Disorder to ADHD, from Autism to Dyslexia!

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Are you an Angry Special Needs Mom?

You might notice a quiet discontentment. You might not be a yeller or no matter how hard you try you might always end up yelling at your kids.  You might have some weeks where you are patient and then others where you have completely lost all your patience.  You might snap at your husband over nothing.  Sometimes you might even end up in tears.  You might wonder why you are so unhappy and why you can’t catch your breath.  It’s exhausting.

Sometimes, anger isn’t exactly what you think of it as.

Underneath it all is anger.  It’s been a big part of my journey as an Autism/SPD/ADHD mom.  Most of the time I didn’t even know it was there.  Until, it just bubbled up and I couldn’t keep it bottled up anymore.  I needed to start recognizing it and dealing with it. 

Anger just has a way of creeping in.

It’s anger over fighting for answers.

Not knowing what to do.

Feeling lonely.

Unpleasant behaviors.

Being completely broken.

Feeling jealous of others.

And just feeling all the hurt.

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Anger is a symptom.  It’s the result of pain.  Special needs parenting is not an easy journey.  Anger breeds frustration and impatience. 

I didn’t want to acknowledge that I was an angry mom.  I wanted to ignore it.  I felt guilty about being angry, I knew that my child couldn’t help it.  I knew that feeling angry wasn’t helping our situation.  The truth until I finally recognized where my anger was from, I felt empowered by its purpose, the guilt ended.  Instead of letting the anger take over and building into bitterness and defeat, there was so much good to be found. 

Anger reminded me of my needs.

It reminds me that I need to take better care of myself.

It reminds me how fragile our family life is.  How fragile I am.

It reminds me to breathe.

It reminds me that I’ve held on to everything too tight.  I need to let go.

It gets me to check in, are my basic needs met?

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When your child has a lot of needs and you are working so hard all day to meet those needs as a mom you are easily exhausted and by 3:00 anger is already starting to bubble up. 

Today, was one of those days in our house. 

I had hit my limit early in the day, but there was still more day left to conquer.  I was getting Miss S ready for soccer and she was arguing with me and having a terrible attitude for the 100th time of the day.  I reminded her about what we were working on and I was angry.  I wasn’t patient but I wasn’t yelling at her.  The tears started and she said “I never make sense to anyone.”  My heart dropped, I had just told her that what she was saying wasn’t making any sense.  The second she said that my anger disappeared. 

I know the days of living in survival and being angry about it. 

1.    Remember to breathe.
Take extra time during stressful moments with your kids to breathe before you speak.  Breathe before you act and check out for a few minutes if needed to regain your emotional balance. 

2.    Anger doesn’t have to be a bad thing, it means you are human.
Let go of the guilt.  Let go of thinking that you shouldn’t feel this way.  Anger is a God-given emotion.  Use it for good. 

3.    Apologize when needed and always remember to model healthy behavior for your children.
Sometimes, anger wins.  Sometimes, you yell.  You can always apologize, acknowledge your mistake to your kids and remind them how you love and care for them.

 4.     Seek help if needed.
I’m a firm believer in working through the emotions you are battling as a special needs parent.  If you feel your anger is out of control and you can’t get a handle on it, I would highly recommend finding someone to help you learn more coping techniques.  

5. Remind yourself that your child’s struggles are real.
Sometimes, it’s easy to forget the many challenges our kids have.  It’s easy to get angry about them.  It’s in remembering their difficulties that brings patience and helps quiet the anger.  It’s reminding myself that this is hard for her. Everyday life is hard for her.


Welcome to Voices of Special Needs Blog Hop — a monthly gathering of posts from special needs bloggers hosted by The Sensory Spectrum and Mommy Evolution. Click on the links below to read stories from other bloggers about having a special needs kiddo — from Sensory Processing Disorder to ADHD, from Autism to Dyslexia!

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5 Things You can do to Feel Supported as a Special Needs Parent

I had coffee with another mama a couple weeks ago, her daughter is just a little over 2.  She packed lunch for her and we blocked her into a little area where we were sitting.  For almost two hours we sat and chatted and for the most part this little one ate and played.  Close to the end of our time together, she had broken loose and started exploring the coffee shop.  Each time, her mama would catch up to her, scoop her up and she would giggle in pure joy.

This is a drastically different picture than what we have had raising our daughter.  At that age our daughter would never sit still.  She would be so fixated on what she wanted and there was no holding her back.  Removing her from the direction in which she was going would result in hitting, head banging, biting and screaming at that age.  Our parenting has been nothing short of extreme.

It’s been an uphill battle.

It’s been a process and I only made it through the worst years because of my mom.

We’ve lived in crisis for years and part of our success has been in having support.  It hasn’t been easy to find support, it hasn’t been easy to maintain support.  We often feel like we are lacking in support.  I think a big part of that is feeling like we shouldn’t need it.

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First, ask yourself these questions to better understand why you feel unsupported.

Overall, asking myself these three questions helps me redefine the support that I need and then focus on what I can do.  The first question is, “What’s preventing me from feeling supported?”  Often, this starts with me and my needs.   Do you build walls around your family, because of living in survival mode?  Sometimes, in the middle of trying to be so strong for ourselves we forget to ask for help, we want to conquer this on our own, or feel like getting help isn’t worth it.

After I look at what the why is in preventing me from feeling supported, then I can move onto the next two questions, “How can I better support myself?” and “How can I get better support from others?”  Often, the first things I do for myself is to cut down my expectations and revisit better coping skills.  After that I think about who has offered to help and how I could add that into our lifestyle.  I also try to remember that the next person that offers to help I am going to take advantage of that and say “Yes!” right away instead of saying, “If I think of something I will let you know!”

When we are struggling with feeling supported there are a five things we can do:

Start a support group.

Find other mom’s like you that need support.  One of the benefits of starting a group is that it can also help fill your bucket, sometimes giving to others is the best medicine.  You are not only helping yourself but you are helping others too.

Or if this is a little out of your comfort zone join in a new support group.  You might be surprised by how refreshing it is to find others, even if their stories are different who are experiencing similar changes in their family.

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Think about your coping skills

Sometimes thinking about what is going on in your family, pinpointing what is stressing you out and how you can better deal with it personally can help you come up with healthy ideas to cope with the stress in your life.

Sometimes coping and self-care doesn’t feel like it is worth it.  I often neglect myself, only to pay the price later.  Taking a look at what I’ve forgotten to do and reminding myself that it needs to be a priority helps me remember it is vital to surviving under a lot of stress.

Think about why you don’t feel supported.

Maybe life has gotten really hard and you’ve decided it’s easier to stay home than leave.  I know that feeling and we’ve been there!  Maybe instead of going to the next big family event you could invite one family group to meet at a nearby park.

Sometimes, we’ve put up the walls.  We’ve pulled away from family and friends only to focus on the crisis in our homes.  I am at fault for this one, and I often need reminders to reach out to others.  I get so busy trying to manage our home and keep what little peace we can I forget about everything else.

Make peace with other’s not understanding you.

I crave someone who gets what we are going through.  No one except for you, is going to completely understand your situation.  As hard as they might try, sometimes we can not understand what it’s like to walk in someone else’s shoes.  Make peace with this reality and forgive others for their lack of empathy.

The easy way is to get angry and bitter, fight for being at peace with other’s not understanding your everyday life.  As hard as this is, if you have a friend that doesn’t get what crisis in your home is like but will have a play date with you and not judge your parenting, enjoy that friendship. Sometimes we can sabotage relationships because we just want someone to understand what we are going through.

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Sometimes when life gets overwhelming it’s better to let go and keep things simple.  It’s easy to get overwhelmed with the everyday battles, the repeated struggles and the inability to function.  Sometimes, less is more.  Sometimes, letting go of what’s necessary is the biggest key to survival.  Taking away my own personal pressure we put on ourselves is sometimes the best way we can support ourselves!

It’s really all about balance, managing the daily crisis in our home with some level of support.  It’s often a very fine balance, which I still struggle to maintain.  Hoping this reminds you to weigh the stress in your family life with support from yourself and from others.




Welcome to Voices of Special Needs Blog Hop — a monthly gathering of posts from special needs bloggers hosted by The Sensory Spectrum and Mommy Evolution. Click on the links below to read stories from other bloggers about having a special needs kiddo — from Sensory Processing Disorder to ADHD, from Autism to Dyslexia!

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Dear Autism Mom: It’s just hard.

Dear Autism (insert your child’s diagnosis here) Mom:

It’s not your fault. 

If you are going through your internal list thinking of what you did, where you went wrong and how you ended up in this place.  It’s not something you did.

It’s not something that went wrong.

You are here and it’s not your fault.  It’s just this hard.

As mothers we have this internal dialog that constantly wonders this, is it just me?  Is this my fault?  We have this deep need to make it better, to nurture it away and to be the best, to be everything for our child(ren). 

We think about, why this is so hard and turn inside ourselves that it must be us. 

We get judged by those who are ignorant in our life, that this because of our parenting and this just adds fuel to the fire.

But, I want to make this very clear.  It’s not your fault.  You cannot prevent Autism (or insert your child’s diagnosis here).  You cannot cause Autism. 

You’ve read every article on the HOW, the WHAT and the WHY and you still find yourself thinking that it’s just you.

It’s just that parenting Autism is really hard. 

Did you get that…. It’s just that it is REALLY HARD.

It’s the endless challenges. The constant needs. 

The lack of sleep…. The Why?

The constant work on social skills, on appropriate behavior, and on trying to get them to eat something other than french fries (or insert the only food they currently eat).

The constant need to touch, to move, to spin, to never sit still and sometimes roll across the floor because it just can’t be helped.

The trouble with emotions, with being out of control. A body that flails and fists that form. 

It’s just HARD.

It’s the constant reminders and the never remembering the simplest task.

It’s the hard of the quietness in the lack of words and conversation that you wish was there.

It’s the hard of the grief that you find in this place. 

It’s just HARD.

And you dear Autism Mom, whether or not you know it yet, is that this hard has grown you into something amazing.  This hard has grown your heart to love more, to break more and to not be messed with.

It’s made you into a mom that even though you feel like giving up you never will.  You are fighting the toughest battle you will ever face.  Make peace with the hard.  Make peace with the challenges.

This is hard. 

Find your tribe.  Don’t ever forget to ask for help.  Remember, that you are more amazing than you know.  You are doing all the right things, you aren’t giving up.

Sometimes, it’s just harder than you ever imagined it would be. 

And you are not alone in that.   

One Simple Trick to being a Confident Special Needs Mom

When you start suspecting your child might have challenges sometimes fear and anxiety take over. The “what ifs” set in and take residence, before you know it you are settled into a place of personal distress. In my experience, a lot of those concerns are valid. We wouldn’t have had the help that we have if it wasn’t for my pushing and my concerns.

However, there is a point you need to get to as a Mom on the special needs journey where no matter what the diagnosis, no matter what challenging behavior that your child is exhibiting you meet it without fear of the future. That takes confidence.

It might take you a few years to get there. But I promise you, you will find your confidence.
Recently I was talking with another Mom who was suspecting sensory challenges. Her concerns were very valid but her fears had completely over taken her.

Concern for what her child would be like during school.

Wondering if she was going to be wild and out of control during Mommy and me classes, while the other toddlers sit nicely in their Mom’s lap.

What if she is always loud?

What if I can’t get her to stop climbing the furniture?

Will she always want to be upside down?

While these all sound very typical concerns even for a neurotypical child, there’s a place where fear comes in and logic goes out.

Many of these concerns go back to thinking about how it makes me look as a parent. Does it make me look like a bad mom when my child is loud? Does it make me look like I can’t parent my child who is running around the room? Does my life look like a mess as my living room is full of sensory products?

I suggested getting rid of the coffee table and adding a trampoline, to me this seemed like a very easy suggestion, but when fear is in control there is no way this would seem like a possibility. This would require letting go. Letting go of having a perfect home and accepting that you have an active child that needs to get that energy out.

Hopefully she will get there, it just takes time.

As the years go on, you learn to let go. That’s the trick to building your confidence as a special needs Mom… letting go.  

You let go of the “what ifs” and the concern of being different.

You grow into a place of acceptance.

You find joy in being greeted with bear hugs that almost knock you over.

Although, the chaos is overwhelming you find peace in having a house full of love.

You let go of the wondering about the future and start to look at how far you’ve come. How far you’re child has come.

You don’t even think of the “what ifs” because you are so focused on the now and what you have to get through today.

You don’t worry about having a trampoline in the middle of your living room with not a lot of other furniture because it makes life work. It gives you room to breathe.

So how do you get to this place of letting go?

Look at what areas are trigging your fear and anxiety the most. Honestly ask yourself how valid they are. Are they a valid concern for right now, with your child at this age or is this a concern for the future?

Remind yourself to focus on the now.

Look back at last month, last week or even last year. What has your child accomplished? Remind yourself that you probably felt like you were failing then, you survived that season and you will survive this season too.

Honestly ask yourself, am I concerned about ________ more because of how it makes me look? Does it make me look like a bad parent, spouse or person?

More than anything this process of letting go takes time. Every win you have and every affirmation on your parenting you get will help build your confidence and help you as you continue to let go. You just have to start somewhere. Make a choice to let go where you need to today and you will be one step closer to being a more confident Mom.


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