I’ve already determined that 2017 is my year. This is my year.
I think it’s pretty common for moms to lose themselves, at some point. We take on this whole role as part of our identity and sometimes we let go of other parts of our life to make room for that. As a special needs mom I felt like this happened at an intense level. There was a point in the past 6 years where I didn’t even care that I laughed at the thought of trying to floss because I couldn’t get anything done and I wasn’t taking care of myself at all.
We have this shelf in our basement that we call our dead dreams shelf. It’s loaded full of our music equipment and also our baby equipment. You see, somewhere along the way we let go of playing music because life got more challenging. We stored away all the baby equipment as we didn’t add more babies to our family. And, there it all sits. Maybe for you it’s different things that you’ve stored away, but my guess is that you have a few dreams that are dead too.
So this year, I’m getting back into focusing on me. JUST ME. This is my year. Because I want to get to those dreams and I want to fully live out who I am created to be. Last year, right at Christmas time of 2015 I hit rock bottom, as we ended one of the most expensive therapy treatments we’ve tried for Miss S I literally fell apart under the weight of it not being effective. I lost a lot of me. Life became more about coping to make it, instead of enjoying every moment. This year, I feel a little bit more energized to focus on me and what I want and need. It’s something that doesn’t come easy for me at all but as a special needs mom, I’ve learned it’s the best thing I can do for our family.
It’s time I start dreaming again. Although, I have a few big dreams in the back of my mind all of these little details this year will definitely help get me there! This year is all about decreasing my stress level, focus on improving myself and learning to love where I am at. This is my year!
Keeping the counters completely cleared.
Keep the floors picked up.
Make my bed.
These are the areas that I could easily see that I realized were stressing me out. I realized that I can easily focus on these areas and it helps reduce my stress level. Sometimes, I am really surprised how much my environment can stress me it. Sensory Dad, on other hand is never bothered by how messy it is.
Live on a budget.
Get rid of debt.
Increase our income.
Over the past few years we’ve been very fortunate to not have to live on a budget. I realized however that we aren’t being very intentional with our money and we have bigger goals that we’d like to meet. I’d like to get back to living within a budget, take care of a little bit of debt and increase our income.
Less sugar, more fruits and veggies.
More sleep. (Go to sleep earlier).
My fitness: cardio, weight lifting and yoga.
A lot of these goals we are doing as a family. This month we are having a monthly water challenge and tracking how much water we are drinking as a family. Next month, we are going to focus on cutting out sugar. I like to keep things simple and tackle one thing at a time!
Get dressed and make up on to take Miss S to school. I learned that I feel more awake and definitely a little more put together than when I crawl out of bed throw on a sweatshirt, boots and a hat (and generally feel and look like a train wreck).
More reading. I’ve got a giant book list to tackle this year.
Create more: paint, draw, scrapbook. I’m starting a once a month get together with a couple of girls to do craft nights!
Music: focus on learning one new song a month. I often don’t make time for this but I enjoy doing it.
Spiritual goals: One course or book a quarter. Since, we don’t go to church, Sensory Dad and I, are starting an online course this quarter through Bethel Church in Redding, CA. We also started reading If God is Good by Randy Alcorn together.