I had planned this fun super simple Christmas tree craft project, Miss Sensory loves to paint so I thought it would be a great idea. I waited for a day where she seemed to be in a relatively good place and thought we could accomplish it.
We gathered some of favorite acrylic paints and put newspaper down on the table. I was looking forward to creating something fun with her.
We started painting and before long, things started to go downhill. She had gotten some paint on her hands and decided that she would just paint her hands.
Her meltdowns are generally pretty challenging, but to add wet paint all over into the mix. Momma was panicking.
This is where it gets hard for me. I feel like I try to be a fun mom and do fun things. But it’s really hard to be a fun mom when meltdowns are always just around the corner. What I really feel like doing is nothing at all. Because meltdowns often just ruin everything. No matter what you do they are just unavoidable.
We’ve already completely changed our lifestyle and have accommodated so much for this sensory life if we really never did anything at all, if we really never tried, what kind of life would that be? I would be setting a horrible example for her.
I would be saying, fine, Sensory Processing Disorder, you win. This mom is out!
And I can’t do that.
So I muscle my way through all the hard. I keep doing things that might be fun even if there’s a meltdown. Even if I’m left feeling angry for even trying.
Sometimes, I am a poor example but my hope is that I show Miss Sensory the importance of trying and doing despite having challenges in life. I don’t want her to give up in life because of Sensory Processing Disorder, even though sometimes that’s how I feel as a mom. I want her to learn how to cope with it. Just like how I’m learning how to cope with it in parenting.
I’m doing my best and that’s my hope for her. It definitely won’t be perfect, but it’s always my best.
Keep going. Don’t give up on the fun just because of the meltdowns.